'Remould it nearer to the Heart's desire'

Since Mocuar’s heart attack (she’s recovering well and is pretty much back to her old self) we’ve used the time to have a hard look at what we’ve been doing and where we’re going. A few nights ago she had a thought which triggered a long discussion, leading to a realisation of something which, when you look at it, seems bleeding obvious.
It’s simply this. For some years now we’ve been working an M/S magickal system, but we’ve seen it as something which we fit within the framework of a conventional marriage. So first and foremost we are a married couple. The Master/Slave element of our relationship is secondary to that. This means that the ordinary daily stuff we do has priority and we ‘insert’ the sex magick when it’s convenient. Not only does this reduce the power of what we do, but it also determines the way we see ourselves as individuals. I’m a husband first and a master second.
This has to change. We’re both convinced of this. We looked back on times when we felt the flow was there and we were more in tune with each other and what we were doing and on each occasion it was when the M/S aspect was fully connected and the husband/wife stuff simply faded into the background.
Not that the conventional marriage aspect isn’t important. It is, we need it to negotiate the conventional world, but it’s only a surface covering, a persona. So it has to be M/S primary and marriage secondary.
Having come to that conlusion we’re faced with how to do it. Because at the heart of it is a major shift in the way we see ourselves. Both of us have been in conventional marriages and relationships before and the pattern was deeply ingrained, we slid into it without really noticing. Perhaps we need to break down marriage primary before we can install M/S primary.

Or, as The Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam has it:


Ah Love, could thou and I with fate conspire
to grasp this sorry scheme of things entire.
Would not we shatter it to bits and then remould it nearer to the heart's desire.

Spiritual

A couple of pics from Erectus:





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the title of this post does, of course, refer to the second picture.

Rammstein

We saw them live a few years back. One of the best rock gigs I've ever seen.

Here's a recent ditty of theirs:

(can't embed it so you'll have to click on the link)

Pussy



And here's the excellent 'Sonne'